Just Chillin'

So, I'm at home, alone in the evening.  LOVIN' IT!  I had forgotten how nice it is to just veg and chill on the sofa - watch whatever I feel and eat whatever I feel and just 'lax!  As much as I enjoy the SO's company (that's Significant Other), it is nice to just be with me.

Which leads me to another thought.  I didn't always enjoy my own company....  I used to feel a sense of anxiety, a pit in the middle of my stomach when I was in my own company.  A sense of unease and, worse, not sure why I was feeling the unease....  I still have those feelings, but they are fewer and fewer. 

But it leads me to another thought.  Do others have the same feelings.  The same sense of unease...? 

I believe that I have grown and matured (but don't get any ideas - I am NOT old).  And I have learned to like myself.

I think that perhaps the hardest lesson to be learned is to like yourself.  To realize that you are as good as you will be (for whatever reason), and to be content.  Content.... that is a sense that I never thought to apply to myself.

Content.  Rest.  Breathing deeply.  AAAAAAhhhhhh........!